I've been in an odd sort of funk lately. Well ok...maybe just like the past 3 hours for this particular funk, but it seems like it's been a lot longer than that. I've been thinking and I'm seriously worried though, all joking aside, that I've officially done what I always dreaded I would do - I've woken up one day and realized that I do a lot of things, but I don't do anything well nor do I do anything I'm particularly passionate about. Not to be morbid, but I sometimes think that if I died tomorrow, would I be able to look back at my life as I stand at the pearly gates of heaven (stop laughing, I will go to heaven) and say that I lived a full, passionate, exhilerating life? Right now, I don't necessarly feel that way, but sometimes I think I expect too much.
Most people are just happy to wake up each morning, be able to pay their bills, maybe go out to lunch, have a good weekend doing something fun, and then start each week over again. And that's perfectly wonderful. But I don't want to be that person. I want to be good at something, and I want to be good at something I'm passionate about. Don't get me wrong, I have a great, fortunate, full, and dare I say, blessed life. I love my business, I have a great family, some wonderful friends, but, like I said, I do a lot of things but I don't do anything well. I don't have a purpose, a passion, a calling....I mean for God's sake...I can barely get my dog to sit on command...the one thing, after two rounds of puppy school that I SHOULD be good at!
So this is my quest for 2010. Find something I'm both good at AND passionate about. Something besides a chocolate cake and ice cream eating contest because we all know that fat kid over here would be fierce at that!
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